“My name is @ñ*¥ I'm aleven they dont like me much cuz I get on there
nervs its not like I try but everwun
dusnt like me and that makes me mad and then that makes me not like anywun and
so I try to make poeple mad cuz they make me mad to but I dont care my mom likes me more than anywun
else but she says I need to shape up or ship out and that makes me mad and then
I say to her that I dont like it when she says that I dont have a brother or a sister
and I dont have any cusins or ants and unkels and my dad left a long time ago
cuz he told my mom he cudnt do kids my mom says hes a asshole”
*
“That asshole left me alone with
a kid he never had any intention of raising! I never dreamed that was happening
then. I was in love, but I'll never make that mistake again. Andy was a
headache from the word go. When he was a toddler, he'd sometimes yell for hours
until his voice went. I stopped trying to stop it after a few months, cuz
nothing I do would change it. I took him to doctors and he never would scream
like that for them. They wanted me to keep him on these drugs they gave me but
I didn't think that was a good idea, cuz it never helped, so I finished the
drugs off myself. It helped me more. Maybe they meant them for me I don't know
what the f**k went on. I did my best with Andy but I have never been up to the
single parenting thing. I need a life, so I always made sure I had one.”
*
“my teechers are meen to me and
the other kids dont like me and I hate them and I hate scool but I still try to
lern things but I havent lernt everthing I need to no I never had any frens cuz I never
even want one and I just stayd in my room wen I was littal and if I want to go
out then I wud just go I told my mom
I can do wut I want and I can git my own food and I can go to bed wen I wanna
and she didn’t hafta do nuthin for me cuz I no she didn’t like havin ta do stuf
she didn’t wanna do”
*
“When he turned 11, Andy changed.
He was always hard to deal with, more stubborn as he got older, and he was
always stubborn, asking too many questions, demanding too much from me...too
much time, too much energy, too much, too much...I can't keep up with it all.
When he was 9, I remember him walking in on me gettin' it on with this guy I
met...just some one night thing...and Andy just stood there. I told him to get
out, I said go to your room, go to bed, but he wouldn't budge. He giggled a lot
and the guy I was screwing almost stopped but I told him just ignore him. The
guy thought it was too much havin' my 9 year old watchin' but we were under the
blankets. Andy couldn't see nothin' and he was gigglin' fer crissake! But then at 11, that was it.”
*
“I left my house cuz my mom sed I
cudnt stay there no mor so I just left and I sleep wherever I want to now and I
steel food wen I need to eet and I pee and poop in the woods or I go to the
comunity center they let me go in there an wash
myself sometimes poeple give me food just to make me leev and I dont
wana be aroun them anyway so I go”
*
“He ran away three weeks ago and
I couldn't get him to come back if I tried. I couldn't be happier, actually.
He'll be ok, as if anyone in this whole town would give a s**t anyway. He knows
how to survive. Hell, that kid'll outlive the f**kin' cockroaches! I just plan
on livin' my life now, just like if I didn't even have a kid, cuz I haven't had
enough fun. God-damnit! There's some serious partyin' to do! Not that I ever
let Andy stop me, but now maybe Dale will move back in with me again. Like I
said before, Andy put a crimp in my sex life, that's for sure. He'd usually
just knock on the door, and say he's hungry or some s**t.”
*
“I bin doin ok but poeple are
startin to get more mad at me wen I come aroun The polis tried to take me back
to my moms but I didnt even go in I sed ok I'll go an then they
talkd to my mom and she lookd out at me an winkd an I new she was sayin she wud
make sure Id stay but she new I was gonna leev agin She says Im anoyin but we both
see eye to eye”
*
“They tried to bring him back.
They said I had to provide food and shelter for him, and that I could be
brought up on charges for not reporting him missing, for child endangerment. Those
f**king hypocrites just don't want him running around the town annoying
everyone! As far as I'm concerned he can come and go as he pleases, but I'd
rather him go than come.”
*
“I went to scool yeserday an
everwun bood wen I came in an I flippd em all off an sed I wasn ever comin back
agin an they clappd the principel yelld for me to
stop an he sed he was gonna call my mom an I sed I dont live there anymore an
he sed what am I doin an I said nothin' an I ran away”
*
“The Principal of Andy's school
called. He left a message, cuz Dale is back, and...you know...we were busy! His
message said that he was gonna call the authorities and report me.
Motherf**ker! He's nothing but a fraud! He never gave a s**t about Andy anymore
than anyone else but now he's gonna act like he cares. He's an asshole.”
*
“I ate some chiken stayk that
this guy orderd He sat
there eetin an I just watchd him he sed get lost but I stayd and
then I started screemin how hungry I was an affer a coupl minits he left he sed he shud spank me I sed only my dad can do that an
I never even saw him ever even wuns and the guy drove away an I ate his chiken
stayk”
*
“Andy never knew his dad, and I
always told him how lucky he was. I haven't seen or heard from that rat bastard
since the day Andy was born. I have no idea where he went but I hope he's far,
far away and stays there. I had a lot of guys over the years but no one ever
stuck around, until Dale. I mean, most of 'em I didn't want 'em stickin' around
anyway, but the good ones never did either, until Dale. Me n Dale were shacked
up for a couple a years...almost a couple. I’m really glad he’s back. He makes
me really happy.”
*
“I went way out from the town an
there was a house that lookd like nobody livd there I went in an there was a guy
there an he was reely sick an he cudnt move an talk so I decidd to stay there he had a frigarader an it had a
lotta food in it an he had a kichen an plats an everthing he had a bathroom to an I washd
up the guy trid to grab me but he
cudnt move an he made funy gronin sounds so I just sleepd wherever I want
an in the day Id go out an play an look around an at night Id eet somethin an
sleep and use the bathroom”
*
“The police came around again and
I said I can't keep track of him. He just goes where he wants to go and I can't
stop him. They said they could arrest me for neglect. I told them prove to me
he's been neglected. He has food, he ain't complaining about being hungry or
havin' nowhere to sleep. You find him, I says, and prove to anyone that he
ain't perfectly happy being out doin' what he wants, and then if he says I
neglected him you come and take me away. They said the school called them too,
and that I should be caring about his education. I said he used to go to school
all the time on his own, up until he turned 11, and they treated him awful...talk
about neglect. The kids called him names and the teachers too, and he still
went and he was doin' ok too. Maybe you oughta, I said to them, maybe you
oughta go talk to the principal and see how they treated him. I think he's
better off not being in that school, just like he's better off bein' off on his
own. He'll do ok, I told them, he'll be fine wherever he is.”
*
“I livd there with that sick guy
for a whil but then wun day I came home an he wasnt movin' at all an I said
stuf to him but his eyes was closd an I thot he must be ded I was hungry so I ate some food
an then I thot I better go tell somebody that the guy is ded so I went to town
an to the polis an I told em where I was stayin an how that sick guy died”
*
“The police have my son in
custody, an 11 year old boy in custody. That's what they called it. I said what
did he do? What did you charge him with? They said truancy, he ain't been to
school in days, and then they said there's more. He's been stayin' at some
shack out in the woods and some guy died there and Andy came in and reported
it. I said, s**t, what, do you think he killed the guy? They said, we don't
know yet, but we're investigating it. Then I heard Andy right through the phone
screamin' just like he did when he was a toddler. The police said I had to go
get him.”
*
“My mom caym to the polis stashun
and fot with the polis bout me she sed I was to much to handel to much for anywun to handel that I was better off on my own I told em I didnt wanna live with
her why cant I live out in that house in the woods where that guy died they sed I cudnt do that an I
screamd som mor so they held me tight an gave me a shot an then put me in jail my mom wasnt there wen I woke up they sed she sind som paper with
som lady who was gona pick me up in a littal wile”
*
“I'm free now. I don't have to
worry about him anymore. They wanted something legal so I signed him over to
the State. They said they still might press charges against me, I said, f**k
that! I ain't worried. He'll get taken care of, or he'll run away again, it's
all the same to me, cuz he's not my problem. I found out a real f**kin' pisser
though. I still can't f**kin' believe this s**t! I mean, what are the chances?
What are the f**kin' chances? That guy that died out there in that shack that
Andy was stayin for weeks........that was the asshole........Andy's father.”
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